Losing control

For most of those that know me, I enjoy being in control. I like knowing what to expect and I enjoy having a plan. I like thinking through possible hiccups and seeing holes in plans. I like to be prepared. At times this can be a great thing but often times it can lead to frustration. Because what I know to be true is that as much as I would like to be in control, I am NOT. I have never been in control, it is always an illusion. I cant predict the future, I cant always figure out the unknown. As much as I do plan, it seems to change or not go exactly as planned. I am learning lots about control and how God wants me to rest in Him. You see, God is the one who is in control. He is the one who can see the whole picture. He knows how things will pan out and he always does what is best. 


Today things did not go as plan. You see, today we were suppose to pack all our stuff up in a moving van that a friend was going to drive up to Boston for us. It was a huge blessing and massive savings for us. Throughout the day today, it began to look like we were not going to be able to put our stuff on the van and were going to have to figure out something else. We were in limbo for most of the day. I have been trying to rest in the fact that God is in control and I am not. Trying to remember that He knows how this will all will happen. I have to be honest though that I dont do it well. I get frustrated and question why things did not go as planned. It sucks at times and hurts. But luckily I have a wonderful husband that reminds me the truth about God. He reminds me that God cares deeply for us and if things dont work out with the moving van, it is because there is something better for us. 


As of tonight, we dont have anything set in stone as for how we will move our stuff up to Boston. The plan is leave on Wednesday and arrive in Boston on friday. That is what I want to happen! But I resting in the truth that God knows how it will all happen! I am grateful to be in a position where God will show off his power! He has brought me to a point where I am trusting in Him and relying on Him for whatever may happen. I am not in control- HE IS! I have to be continually reminded of that truth! I serve a God who is not only adores me and showers me with His love, but has the ability to do anything!!

"I think I will go to Boston"

The boxes have begun to be filled.

The goodbyes have started.

We are moving in 13 days to Boston...CRAZY!!!

We are actually moving. I always knew that when we got married that we would be moving somewhere. Chris has always wanted to finish his Masters and I love adventure, so Boston it is. I am a florida girl and the thought of moving up to Boston is a little daunting, but I am excited!

We will pack all our stuff up, load it up in uhaul and move up. Chris will start classes in September at Gordon Conwell and I will start working with the Boston SV team. He will be pursuing his Masters in Divinity in hopes of either teaching, planting a church, joining staff with CRU or whatever else God may have planned. The first year we will live on campus in apartments- woohoo :) I am actually a little excited about it. I love the thought of living in community with others that are doing the same thing for a season of life!

Along with all the excitement, I am a sad to be leaving. Atlanta was my first adventure after college. I moved up here with a carload of things and a new job. The last 5 years have changed me and I have learned more than I ever could of imagined. I am grateful for the adventures, life lessons and experiences I have had. I will miss it more than I can put into words...

Top 5 things Atlanta has brought/taught me:

5) I learned that I still love the game of soccer. I have loved getting to coach at the high school and see how God can use soccer for His glory.

4) My first ministry assignment...SV North Fulton. I have had a different team each year I have been here and through each one, I have learned so much and had so much fun. I have seen God move in the hearts of students and change kids lives. As I sit and think, I am amazed at God's faithfulness to pursue his children and show them His love!

3) God is in control and know what is best for me- I am stil learning this now :)

2) The bestest friends that anyone could have! They have brought joy and laughter and encouragement in my life! I have had endless adventures. Oh how I will miss our deep conversations over coffee and getting to pray for each other and try new things!

1) I found my loving husband here :) We are coming up on 9 months of marriage in August and it is AWESOME! I could never have imagined that I would meet my husband in Alpharetta, GA. Once again, God surprised me with Chris as a sweet blessing and gift to me!