Losing control

For most of those that know me, I enjoy being in control. I like knowing what to expect and I enjoy having a plan. I like thinking through possible hiccups and seeing holes in plans. I like to be prepared. At times this can be a great thing but often times it can lead to frustration. Because what I know to be true is that as much as I would like to be in control, I am NOT. I have never been in control, it is always an illusion. I cant predict the future, I cant always figure out the unknown. As much as I do plan, it seems to change or not go exactly as planned. I am learning lots about control and how God wants me to rest in Him. You see, God is the one who is in control. He is the one who can see the whole picture. He knows how things will pan out and he always does what is best. 


Today things did not go as plan. You see, today we were suppose to pack all our stuff up in a moving van that a friend was going to drive up to Boston for us. It was a huge blessing and massive savings for us. Throughout the day today, it began to look like we were not going to be able to put our stuff on the van and were going to have to figure out something else. We were in limbo for most of the day. I have been trying to rest in the fact that God is in control and I am not. Trying to remember that He knows how this will all will happen. I have to be honest though that I dont do it well. I get frustrated and question why things did not go as planned. It sucks at times and hurts. But luckily I have a wonderful husband that reminds me the truth about God. He reminds me that God cares deeply for us and if things dont work out with the moving van, it is because there is something better for us. 


As of tonight, we dont have anything set in stone as for how we will move our stuff up to Boston. The plan is leave on Wednesday and arrive in Boston on friday. That is what I want to happen! But I resting in the truth that God knows how it will all happen! I am grateful to be in a position where God will show off his power! He has brought me to a point where I am trusting in Him and relying on Him for whatever may happen. I am not in control- HE IS! I have to be continually reminded of that truth! I serve a God who is not only adores me and showers me with His love, but has the ability to do anything!!