God Reveals

In the journey to a new city, you learn lots about yourself. Moving is never easy on anyone. It seems to  amplify those areas in your life that you tended to try and control. In essence, God reveals the idols in your life and let me tell you, it is never a fun thing. As you might remember from previous post, I love control. I like to know that everything is going to be ok and that it will all work. It would appear that God really wants me to understand this concept that I am never really in control. That clinging to the idol of security, control, money and safety will get me nothing. Through the last couple of weeks, God has been gracious to help me understand that I cling to my idols instead of Him. He is wanting me to be free from them and be able to claim that HE ALONE is the BLESSED CONTROLLER OF ALL THINGS.

Since arriving up to Boston, everything seems to be just a little harder than we thought. The process of getting settled into our new home has not been the easiest and I feel like at every turn there just one more thing that we didnt think of or one more thing we have to do. BUT in the process of it all, God has been faithful. I have been reading through, Calm My Anxious Heart by Linda Dillow. I tend to be a person that focuses on everything that doesn't work out, the failures and my fears. But in reading the book and scripture, I am reminded of Philippians 4:4-9:

" Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.  Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."

I realize that I am called to rejoice in everything. To rejoice when things are hard and when they dont go the way that I want. I am called to not be anxious, to trust in the God, the blessed controller of all things. I am to dwell on the truth and not on the things that could happen. I am to praise God for who is, faithful, trustworthy, gracious and constant. 

So in the midst of all the craziness of moving. In the whirlwind of life as I know it right now, I am learning to choose to cling to cross where God demonstrated how much he loved me. I am clinging to the promise that God will never leave me nor forsake me. God is the one that is in control and slowly but surely I am able to allow this truth to move from my head down to my heart!